Renew

by Lee Ann
(Hopkinsville, KY United States)

Something the Lord made

Hello.
I'm Lee Ann.

I'm a 24 year old single mother trying to lead the live of our Saviour. My baby is just months old and I love her to death but she was not planed.

I was dumb when I was young, 23 lol. I was a virgin then. I started dating when I was 18 but I never "done it" because I wanted to wait til marriage. But then I went to college. I had no intention to date again because after 5 years of being single the thought of being in a relationship never crossed my mind.

Then I met a man named Tim. I tried telling myself that we're just friends and that I'm not looking but, clearly that didn't happen. We started dating and after 4 months of just talking and getting to know each other he wanted to do more than just talk. I didn't want to do more. He said he'd break up with me if I didn't do it. I know, I know. I'm so sorry for what I've done. I threw everything I have ever said I was going to do with my life, out the window. But, I didn't just jump up and just do it. I tried talking to him, explaining that I'm a Christians waiting for marriage but he said "if I loved him, I'd do it." So I did. Like an idiot I gave myself away. But then weeks passed and he treated me like I was some kind of dog. He was rude to me, talked about me, and mocked my God! I finally realized I was dating the devil. I had to leave him

4 to 5 months went by and again I found myself in the eyes of a bad man. This time I stood my ground! But he started crying and saying that he loved me. I know, I know! I'm dumb for being so dumb. I just didn't want to hurt his feelings.

I can't and won't tell about this one but he's the father of my child. All I can say is 2 months out of college close to Thanksgiving and he decided he didn't want to wait anymore. So....here I am, a single mother with the love of her life.

I titled this Renewed because I'm renewing my life.

My daughter and I are both Seventh Day Adventist Christians waiting on the Lord.